By: shaina agbayani

I keep looking for confirmation of my ancestry in books, and then realize my body, vessel of earth&ancestors&spirit, is the first & most truthful book.

chapter 1

**I have no book to tell me my an-sisters are queer

**my body is the first(last) and most truthful book

**I am the queer an-sister

**heirloom seeds of rice are to be hidden(planted-saved) deep in earth, harvest always latent(ready to bloom)

**i am the first(last) seed

**i am siya who binds – plants(hides-saves) – the last(first) sheaf

chapter 2

**i have no book to tell me my an-sisters fast in kinship with earth&spirit (full moon ritual)

**my body is the first(last) and most truthful book

**i am the queer an-sister, fasting in kinship with earth&spirit(full moon ritual)

**heirloom seeds, buried deep in earth, are to be collected(preserved-offered) for future an-sisters

**i am the first(last) seed-saver

**i am siya who binds – preserves-offers(collects) – the last(first) sheaf

chapter 3

**one book(thickspine) tells me my an-sisters offer woodwind hymns to spirit world(new moon ritual)

**my body is the last(first) and most truthful chapter

**i am the queer an-sister, fasting in kinship with earth&spirit (full moon ritual), offering woodwind hymns to spirit world (new moon ritual)

**an-sisters(past&future), buried deep in earth(growing amongst us) are to be summoned(sung&watered) through butterfly songs

**i am the first(last) seed-singer

**i am siya who binds – summons(water-sings) – the last(first) sheaf

 

 

 

About Sha:

chapter 4

*i once had a vivid dream that ancestral alphabets can be danced

**one elder(longspine) tells me (deep inky voice, azul blood written on tree) baybayin can be danced in pangalay

**my body is the last(first) and most truthful chapter

**i am the queer dream of my an-sisters, elder dancing ancestral alphabets, singing(watering-summoning) new moon hymns, saving(preserving-offering) full moon seeds, planting(hiding-saving) heirloom harvests

**butterfly songs, vibrating deep in earth(resonating high above us) are to be danced(dreamt) in prayer

**i am the first(last) seed-dancer

**i am siya who binds – dances(dreams-prays) – the last(first) sheaf

 

chapter 6

dear rice-moon sorcerer(sambong)

you have already sung your dreams

into

our bodies

queer earth

ancestral temples

they lay ready

awaiting

on sheaves of rice(heirloom harvest)

hymns around which we dance(ancestral alphabets)

dreaming(praying-dancing)

summoning(watering-singing)

collecting(preserving-offering)

planting(hiding-saving)

binding

the first, last sheaf

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Sha is a femme fermentation fairy & singer of Moon Karaoke gi ed to be living in Tkaronto by way of Ilocus Sur, Mindoro, Quezon, Batangas, Romblon, and many other lands eluding/defying categorization that have nurtured her an-sisters&ancestors. Sha invites you to reach out & connect if you feel called at sha.sambong@gmail.com